Medication day 4

well,last night I was ready to take Tyler off of medication. As a Mom I try to make right decisions. Always what is best for Tyler. The meds are working great at school according to the teachers. At home, Tyler is more emotional, agitated, and isn't sleeping enough. 5 hrs a night, last few days, compared to usual 9. But he wakes up happy, yet very antsy. The psychiatrist said we are gonna focus on his impulsiveness, focus, and hyperactivity. Well, at home, these are still challenges. But his teacher said, look at all the changes in his life right now. This week, he had subs for in home therapy, his Dad isn't here every day, like he was the last few weeks, so I am going to be patient. I ask myself, was Tyler so bad before? Maybe some redirection? Is focussing in school going to make him a better student? Autism is behaviours.... I work on that every day. Yet when it comes to academics, my son is very behind. He doesn't color in the lines, trace or write his name. He will need these skills. But he also needs to learn appropriate behaviour like don't drop your pants in the park to go pee. I really try to live day to day, but when I think 10 yrs from now when my son is an adult, what then? Decisions today can affect his future. A little overwhelming, alot on our shoulders. I just want to protect my son from all the bad in the world, I odn't want him to be made fun of, yet he doesn't know when someone is, it hurts me way more then it does him, because he doesn't get it. Maybe the meds will make him more aware of this, more clear, understanding more. Is this really a good thing? Reality can really such huh? Anyways, will talk to Tylers doctor Monday, and try to be open minded. I just hate my kid is like a science project right now..... :(